Weeding Needy Solipsism And Spiritual Surrender


Weeding of the people kind was something I planned to do today then compassion kicked in. For them. For me, I may have to mute as, in general, we become like those we share space with.

Three Magi

Including mind space. But I’m jumping ahead.

Three Maji

My last 2020 review (the Argh post) briefly touched on how tweets about followers, their numbers or who to follow, was doing my head in. It was all LF mind space whether I did my nosey thing or not.

Have deleted virtually everything I wrote this morning as, for some, Twitter is their self-verification. It is their means of being alive or rather being seen to be alive to the world. And who am I to take that from them however much it irritates me?

The problem for them is, because they are not famous, they have to amuse their hungry followers.

Lace your tweets with lots of swearing and sexual innuendo and you will be a Twitter star. Have a personal tragedy or tag in someone who has, and you’ll gather followers like the proverbial.

Announce you are leaving Twitter or taking time off and your followers will beg you to stay and you will attract yet more … and then they are back to their adoring crowd before most have even noticed.

Twitter has become their god. They cease to exist without Twitter likes and the ‘banter’.

Twitter is like a willy-waving contest. Or for the women to talk about their genitalia. Throw in some political stuff to make it seem like there are a few functioning brain cells and watch those follower numbers (mostly bots, btw) increase as if they were the Second Coming.

Interesting that some who keep online diaries tend to avoid swearing on them. That persona seems reserved for Twitter. So, who is the real one? The ones begging for sympathy and understanding via a polite blog or the ones chucking out profanities with every other tweet?

One online diary of someone who is highly popular on Twitter indicates a very angry, unhappy soul. Self-aware, true, but still angry. I actually felt and feel a great kindness towards them now as I don’t think Twitter is the answer for them.

For a great many, Twitter is ego verification via pandering to the rubbernecking needs of others. (See solipsism below.)

Facebook is similar in many ways but with, generally, less anonymity. Disliking Facebook is being dishonest. With Facebook there are people we know in real life who are less likely to ‘like’ one’s posts or tell you the sun shines from your nethers – as seems to be the case with the popular Twitterati – so, for them, it irks and makes them feel irrelevant.

Which neatly brings me to solipsism and spiritual surrender.


Spiritual Surrender Inc Solipsism

Just before NYE a Facebook friend pondered on whether we are all solipsistic. (I had to look it up again as well! Not a word I use much if at all so its exact meaning had become hazy.

Solipsism is the philosophical idea that only one’s mind is sure to exist. As an epistemological position, solipsism holds that knowledge of anything outside one’s own mind is unsure; the external world and other minds cannot be known and might not exist outside the mind.  

As usual, I don’t quite agree.

All minds are or can be individual but are also part of the whole. Our reality can be individual but also part of the whole and shared. Even divided beliefs share a common theme – hence belonging with some and falling out over others. Personal verification fractures when some (not me, btw) fall out with those they have long known for having contrary views or changing tack on a shared important issue.

There is self and then there is Self. And even the Self operates on several levels.

Having a tendency to tune into others, or allow them to tune into me, means I exist for them and they exist for me.

Which btw is why I so dislike that follower begging as these people do exist for me and I am tuning into their LF needs – which I do not want to do.

The thread then somewhat expanded to say we should tap into a higher power and serve that power.


But yet again, my view veered in another direction. Spiritual surrender, I wrote, can make one too supine in accepting things. I think we are meant to use our spiritual power to change things.

Their view was that in changing ourselves we change reality.

Also true.

And also true is that, again, my perspective somewhat differs.

Basic observation will show it doesn’t change reality for ourselves but our attitude to it.

I mean if you are in financial pain, you can tell your mind that money is coming, but the actual reality is you still have an overdraft or debts.

If someone you loved has died, you can tell your mind that the love is still there and sense his or her presence, but the actual human/physical reality is they are not.

We know the invisible elite are changing our lives with the planned Great Reset. We can tell ourselves that they have not taken our minds, they are not going to affect how we live our lives. But that will not be true. This last year of lockdowns, suicides, small businesses going bust, fraudulent elections and so on more or less confirm that.

We have seen loved ones turn against each other with even more ferocity than over Brexit. And for a virus with a 99% survival rate.

So mind attitude is one thing but will never over-write reality for the whole. If it does for any one individual, it’s called schizophrenia.

Mark you, shared mental illness could now be called Covid.

Spiritual Purpose

Spiritual surrender and realisation of self are inter-related. They do indeed make us aware of higher powers but, and I am speaking from personal experience repeated a few times, they do not change overall reality. They change our attitudes to it.

Meaning martyrs, for example, were very much in tune with their higher selves, but Nero, Diocletian et al still persecuted Christians.

They were not broken and died with a kind of spiritual joy and freedom but the reality around them did not change till much later… ie through Constantine.

That said, religious persecution for various faith continued and still continues so what exactly is ‘reality’?


I guess what this post means is the thought that woke me at the way too early time of 6am is not going to be turned into a plan of action.

There are those who need Twitter for their personal realities.

Equally surrendering to one’s Higher Self, God and then not listening and following through is also not the answer.

It’s quite possible some never sense their God Self. Others sense it by channelling creativity or creating a vacuum – or fighting to right wrongs.

There are many reasons why some feel they don’t exist for others. I might come to this again another time.


I forgot to add the plagued NHS and its dance fetish to that last Argh post.

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More spiritual mumbo-jumbo: my spiritual purpose is to learn and share – a kind of teaching through personal experience. This is why I share aspects of my life and thoughts either on social media or on my website.

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2020 Review Part 2

Multiverse 6

Jupiter Saturn Conjunction

It’s Christmas week and, as at time of writing, the Jupiter-Saturn Conjunction kicks off today. As an Aquarian, it’s apparently going to affect me more than many. Life changing, it seems. Not sure how much more ’life changing’ stuff I can take but will be happy with a big lottery/Premium Bonds win. That is if the World Economic Forum doesn’t try and prise it away from me.

This conjunction does not currently appear to be working in Trump’s favour as I gather he has already moved his personal items from the White House. Not sure how this plays to Peter Novak’s much-repeated predictions that Trump will serve a second term.

Although Novak says it will kick off in January or at least in the last week of this year, I think there might well be an undercurrent of panic and desire clouding his interpretations.

Post-Brexit trade talks continue to confirm how venal and controlling the EU Project has always been. France as of yesterday have closed borders causing lorries to pile up in Dover. Nothing to do with a new mutation, for sure, but more French blackmail. If they are not doing that, they cause violence to lorries, let thousands of Islamic illegals dinghy through – AND we are paying them ever more to stop them.  

If these aren’t some form of Groundhog End Times, I don’t know what is.

US Election Fraud

This is an interesting documentary and well worth a listen. Seems Trump has already moved his personal items from the White House so appears to have conceded.

Conspiracy Theories

 “You will own nothing and you will be happy”

Yes, I keep mentioning it but, seriously, this is the garbage the WEF is trying to foist on us, happily spread by the usual anarchists and dopes.

This year, conspiracy theories sound much saner than the mess we are being served up each and every day. Meanwhile the ‘elite’ seem to live their lives almost exactly as before. Just periodically lecturing those of us on the lower rungs. It is all puke-inducing and I feel horribly powerless.

Freedom of Expression

Whoever is pulling global strings does not want any criticism about the virus or vaccines or Trump. Several of my FBFs have either been banned for 30 days or in some cases had their accounts removed totally. 

Last Friday night, I actually felt a frisson of fear that ‘they’ are winning. “You will own nothing, and you will be happy”. That lot. (And yes, I cannot repeat it often enough as a warning. Pay ATTENTION!)

Meanwhile, I’ve taken to writing in circular fashion or code to reduce fallout.

Hermit Behaviour Is Encouraged

New CV madness. No travel beyond local so no meeting up with family as planned. I have lots of food and booze but curiously I am not actually drinking or eating it. 

Luckily, I haven’t put on any weight despite minimal exercise. I have barely been outside and definitely no long walks. The air still hangs heavy with worry at best and fear at worst – or so I have noticed during the times I have been out.

Oh, people smile at me and say hello. But still the vibes hang heavy.

At least in my own light and bright space, I feel good in myself and that I will be looked after in some way.

I haven’t bothered with Law of Attraction rules as the kind of things I want right now involve other people and are pretty big – Brexit success, issues with the US which will impact us heavily, Islamic immigration changing Western demographics – and all the crap that will entail – and similar.

Sure I want that detached home if only to have all my books out on bookshelves and not scrunched into boxes in the smallest bedroom. But until I see how this Great Reset is going to affect me, I am not pushing for it.

My personal prophecy tools indicate I am travelling and happily but that too is not something I can see as any vaccine – let alone multiple ones – will have to be forced on me. Meaning I will not be able to travel.

Virtual Relationships & Those Vibes Again

I guess we are going to have a lot more of them in the coming months and years.

And yet again the apparent current sender of admittedly intermittent vibes never communicates with me and is more interested in and solicitous of other women. In fact, just like T.

I actually do not mind as we are chalk and cheese, just curious and no nearer working out why I pick up these ‘unlikelies’ and not those of someone who would be right for me.

What kind of spiritual lessons might there be? It’s not as if we are mentally in tune let alone physically.

Someone DM’d the other day that love would find me. Love has. I know I am loved. What I need and want is someone who is mystically drawn to me. Twin Souls stuff rather than just soulmates who come in all kinds of metaphorical shapes and sizes.  It’s definitely not just for sex – however pleasurable the vibes might be.

Part 3 Review Coming Soon – Probably

There are undoubtedly more challenges and chaos to come before the year ends.

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2020 Review Part 1

Another year is coming to an end, so I guess I ought to have a review, if only to see what good things happened as well as what not to do next year.

The Year of Covid

I’d love to think this was just one dreadful year but whoever is directing this nightmare isn’t about to stop for the foreseeable future. Such brazen lies and mind manipulating and so many falling for it.  I’ve posted the many discrepancies on social media and am not going into them again here, but there will undoubtedly be many further issues and erosions of our liberties to come.

Small businesses have been suffering greatly while global corporations have become ever wealthier.

And then the vaccine

Not one I will be rushing to get, not only because of my allergic reactions but also because none of them have been properly tested. And who sane believes that great medical guru, Bill Gates?

Brexit Talks

As the Big Date (31st December 2020) approaches, Brexit pro and con arguments are on the increase once more. As of this blog post, I do not know what to believe or whether the EU will still have some control over us. Thanks to the free entry of thousands of Islamic illegals, I trust no-one.

Islamic Illegals

This has been a doubly horrendous year for wave after wave of illegal Islamic migrants swanning in – while we Brits were either in lockdown or with controlled movements of some kind. Some are being put up in four and five star accommodation which those of us who are paying for them could ill afford. Don’t want to burst a blood vessel, so I am definitely not going into that again. Have tweeted quite enough already. And with suggestions – ie offshore detention ships.

The Great Reset

This big idea of Klaus Schwab of the World Economic Forum being pushed by everyone from the Pope to Prince Charles – except Trump – has made no secret of its plans. ‘You will own nothing and you will be happy’. Writing of this too is making my blood pressure rise – again.


I am not a fan of his style and manner, but something is seriously amiss with the US elections. Not only has very obvious fraud been committed but the various layers of justice including their highest Supreme Court keep dismissing their cases. It is about to either fizzle out or ramp up in such a big way that talk of civil war is not farfetched.


The mainstream media has shed all semblance of integrity and honesty in reporting. It isn’t even doing a good job of brainwashing – except for the serially demented (most of whom are on the left but, sadly re Covid and Trump, there are quite a few on the right as well).


Surprisingly good. No hives but nasal flaking after eating the wrong things again (meaning stuff I love – cheese, nuts). Magnesium citrate has been excellent for keeping bloated tum to a minimum. Unfortunately, it has also made me horribly conscious of needing the loo a lot. And, sorry to be scatological, but bowel movements have been on the loose side. Catch-22 then. I like having a flat tum but am not at all fond of unexpected loo visits. Even more so when half asleep!

Melasma almost went but then I overdid a lactic peel, so it was back to PIH, not helped by going without makeup for most of lockdown. The mineral makeup had and has been acting as a sunblock. Even inside, UV rays have a negative effect on hyperpigmentation.

Going without makeup, by the way, was because I wanted to feel good about myself with or without – and I did, up to a point. I quite like my thinning brows and as long as my eyes shine, I don’t look too frightening.

I did go to see the GP about my neck and got prescribed a stronger corti-something cream. Doesn’t seem to be working on my mole which seems to flatten and appear to go, but then the lump comes back. Am currently now using some gizmo that zaps it with an electrical charge. Seems to have reduced it minimally.

The other issue of over-keratinisation(?) may be down to insulin reaction – or something. Anyway, I don’t eat much if any sugar but had been eating more pasta and puff pastry. Gave those up and it too seems to have reduced. Still need to use rubbing alcohol and a potent neck wash which do nothing for my self-esteem.

Socialising Romance Dates Whatever

Most of my socialising has been with V in the garden in front – which has made her happy. Had lunch in Chichester with an erstwhile Twitter follower (male). Zero dates and sub-zero on the romance front.

Repeat Scripts

Physical romance might be sub-zero, but the year has been topped and tailed by a relatively similar ‘vibes’ scenario. Different men but, for some reason, channels with a roughly similar script in parts.

As is the way with Twitter, I discovered the Toad had been suspended – again. His blinkered female fans think it was for upsetting a journo. If past observation is anything to go by, I’d say his grooming pervy tendency got him into hot water again.

But, oddly, a month or so later, I felt his presence on Twitter. A most peculiar vibe. Actually, like a toad’s blinking, I felt him observing me. Somehow, I am sometimes still picking up his vibes. For now.

The other channel was useful in ‘taping over’ the frequency picked up. That said, unlike the Toad, this other seems disinterested in me per se and has shown no curiosity in any of this esoteric stuff.

End Times

Repetition of scripts (Groundhog spiritual evolution) is my current metaphysical view. In the same way that some of the Toad’s similarities are shared by the other channel, I think End Times are Groundhog scripts. The Antichrist and the Messiah appear in evolving forms, never quite right, but still signalling division and massive changes.

I have written a separate post on this, but it needs reviewing and editing so that’s just a taster.

Will post this and add more as the month progresses.

Corner Artwork

It’s called Sunrise Xmas and is the artwork for this year’s e-card. Hope with the bird and the sunrise.

2020 Review Part 2

Coming soon.

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