Euphrosene Labon

Thursday 22: Despite not being a fan of soap-style TV, I do get sucked in sometimes. Like last night. Desperate Housewives managed to claim too much of my mind time, so I surfed to ‘read the last chapter’. Well, as much as I could find on spoiler sites.

I won’t ruin your enjoyment so will just report on my ‘feelings’.

Years ago, at my first boarding school, I remember sitting in the parlour, waiting to take a piano exam. For some reason, the ambience was always the same - or at least in my memory. But it must have been a very potent memory, because it flickers back into current memory space quite frequently.

The room was large, edged with dark furniture and uninspiring paintings, I think. No details exist in my inner programme. What does mentally repeat is this relatively dark room, with a quiet yellow beam of light streaming through the large dormer? windows. It was quite hypnotic, not that it got me better marks in my exams!

And now, whenever I see a spotlight of sunbeam, I am transported, to a sense of tempus fugit - and yet equally standing still.

Although there was mental silence then, now, there is sometimes music that illustrates that soft sad passing of time - that of Eric Satie. Specifically Gymnopedie No 1.

But what has that to do with Desperate Housewives? Ah, I cannot give away the ending as shared by spoiler sites, but I did feel at one with their lives and that sense of looking back over the years. There is a bittersweet sensation, like finding a sepia photograph of someone, or a family group, locked in that moment of time.

btw, all these thoughts popped into my head as I was cleaning my teeth! Then, as suddenly, I had a very strong image of the doctor who died. For his loved ones, his photographs and videos will have an evanescing essence, the immediacy gradually fading, becoming locked in that moment. Sad, isn’t it?

According to the ‘Official Google Blog’, there will be a new, highly colourful logo soon. It looks wonderfully colourful. As will Argentinian Tango.

I have finally done a rough outline of the full body. But the watercolour paper is very large (760mmx560mm) and I had to get a cheapie A1 board to avoid poking holes in it as I drew. Also because of the size, it will be mixed media, predominantly watercolour pencils.

There are new watercolour pencils which produce an ink-like finish when wet. Hopefully, they, with glass paint, will give me the effect I am looking for.

When I decide to ‘allow’ grey and wrinkled, I hope I look as beautiful as Anna Ford (yes I know she had a head start!)

Also on ageing, I can empathise with the women who join various toyboy dating sites to avoid ‘retired accountants.. who play golf’.

I may be getting on in CF terms, but I think I look good, am energetic and have a lively wit. Why would I want someone with a one foot in the grave attitude? There again, I do not like the term ‘toyboy’. I don’t mind paying my own way, but I object to keeping a man, and I have met a fair few of those over the years. I suppose I do like a man who is a man in the old style sense, one who will spoil me, but those sort seem to prefer dim pre-teen blondes.

The Herbert is at it again, backing the Government on the abortion bill. While I do believe in cause and effect rather than right and wrong per se, I do feel they are killing souls (at any stage btw). Yes, I know it was a free vote, but isn’t the Herbert and his ilk supposed to be representing his constituents not his personal predilections?

24 weeks is SIX MONTHS, folks.

Are these women so completely out of tune with their bodies - and sex life! - that they do not know when they have conceived? And if they do, why wait so long to murder the soul within them? Yes, I am taking sides. This is an issue where you cannot sit on the fence. Please note I am not including serious medical conditions in this, although I hope I would have had the strength to go to term if either of my pregnancies had resulted in abnormalities.

btw, letting the state take the new born infant might reduce the need to pay vast amounts to couples for IVF treatment. A baby is a baby, and they are always in demand.

Desperate Housewives, piano exam, memory, passing of time, spoiler sites, time, watercolour pencils, ageing, toyboy, abortion, cause and effect