Weeding Needy Solipsism And Spiritual Surrender


Weeding of the people kind was something I planned to do today then compassion kicked in. For them. For me, I may have to mute as, in general, we become like those we share space with.

Three Magi

Including mind space. But I’m jumping ahead.

Three Maji

My last 2020 review (the Argh post) briefly touched on how tweets about followers, their numbers or who to follow, was doing my head in. It was all LF mind space whether I did my nosey thing or not.

Have deleted virtually everything I wrote this morning as, for some, Twitter is their self-verification. It is their means of being alive or rather being seen to be alive to the world. And who am I to take that from them however much it irritates me?

The problem for them is, because they are not famous, they have to amuse their hungry followers.

Lace your tweets with lots of swearing and sexual innuendo and you will be a Twitter star. Have a personal tragedy or tag in someone who has, and you’ll gather followers like the proverbial.

Announce you are leaving Twitter or taking time off and your followers will beg you to stay and you will attract yet more … and then they are back to their adoring crowd before most have even noticed.

Twitter has become their god. They cease to exist without Twitter likes and the ‘banter’.

Twitter is like a willy-waving contest. Or for the women to talk about their genitalia. Throw in some political stuff to make it seem like there are a few functioning brain cells and watch those follower numbers (mostly bots, btw) increase as if they were the Second Coming.

Interesting that some who keep online diaries tend to avoid swearing on them. That persona seems reserved for Twitter. So, who is the real one? The ones begging for sympathy and understanding via a polite blog or the ones chucking out profanities with every other tweet?

One online diary of someone who is highly popular on Twitter indicates a very angry, unhappy soul. Self-aware, true, but still angry. I actually felt and feel a great kindness towards them now as I don’t think Twitter is the answer for them.

For a great many, Twitter is ego verification via pandering to the rubbernecking needs of others. (See solipsism below.)

Facebook is similar in many ways but with, generally, less anonymity. Disliking Facebook is being dishonest. With Facebook there are people we know in real life who are less likely to ‘like’ one’s posts or tell you the sun shines from your nethers – as seems to be the case with the popular Twitterati – so, for them, it irks and makes them feel irrelevant.

Which neatly brings me to solipsism and spiritual surrender.


Spiritual Surrender Inc Solipsism

Just before NYE a Facebook friend pondered on whether we are all solipsistic. (I had to look it up again as well! Not a word I use much if at all so its exact meaning had become hazy.

Solipsism is the philosophical idea that only one’s mind is sure to exist. As an epistemological position, solipsism holds that knowledge of anything outside one’s own mind is unsure; the external world and other minds cannot be known and might not exist outside the mind.  

As usual, I don’t quite agree.

All minds are or can be individual but are also part of the whole. Our reality can be individual but also part of the whole and shared. Even divided beliefs share a common theme – hence belonging with some and falling out over others. Personal verification fractures when some (not me, btw) fall out with those they have long known for having contrary views or changing tack on a shared important issue.

There is self and then there is Self. And even the Self operates on several levels.

Having a tendency to tune into others, or allow them to tune into me, means I exist for them and they exist for me.

Which btw is why I so dislike that follower begging as these people do exist for me and I am tuning into their LF needs – which I do not want to do.

The thread then somewhat expanded to say we should tap into a higher power and serve that power.


But yet again, my view veered in another direction. Spiritual surrender, I wrote, can make one too supine in accepting things. I think we are meant to use our spiritual power to change things.

Their view was that in changing ourselves we change reality.

Also true.

And also true is that, again, my perspective somewhat differs.

Basic observation will show it doesn’t change reality for ourselves but our attitude to it.

I mean if you are in financial pain, you can tell your mind that money is coming, but the actual reality is you still have an overdraft or debts.

If someone you loved has died, you can tell your mind that the love is still there and sense his or her presence, but the actual human/physical reality is they are not.

We know the invisible elite are changing our lives with the planned Great Reset. We can tell ourselves that they have not taken our minds, they are not going to affect how we live our lives. But that will not be true. This last year of lockdowns, suicides, small businesses going bust, fraudulent elections and so on more or less confirm that.

We have seen loved ones turn against each other with even more ferocity than over Brexit. And for a virus with a 99% survival rate.

So mind attitude is one thing but will never over-write reality for the whole. If it does for any one individual, it’s called schizophrenia.

Mark you, shared mental illness could now be called Covid.

Spiritual Purpose

Spiritual surrender and realisation of self are inter-related. They do indeed make us aware of higher powers but, and I am speaking from personal experience repeated a few times, they do not change overall reality. They change our attitudes to it.

Meaning martyrs, for example, were very much in tune with their higher selves, but Nero, Diocletian et al still persecuted Christians.

They were not broken and died with a kind of spiritual joy and freedom but the reality around them did not change till much later… ie through Constantine.

That said, religious persecution for various faith continued and still continues so what exactly is ‘reality’?


I guess what this post means is the thought that woke me at the way too early time of 6am is not going to be turned into a plan of action.

There are those who need Twitter for their personal realities.

Equally surrendering to one’s Higher Self, God and then not listening and following through is also not the answer.

It’s quite possible some never sense their God Self. Others sense it by channelling creativity or creating a vacuum – or fighting to right wrongs.

There are many reasons why some feel they don’t exist for others. I might come to this again another time.


I forgot to add the plagued NHS and its dance fetish to that last Argh post.

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Another NB

More spiritual mumbo-jumbo: my spiritual purpose is to learn and share – a kind of teaching through personal experience. This is why I share aspects of my life and thoughts either on social media or on my website.

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Simulation Channelling And Repeat Scripts

Simulation, maya, synchronicity, Lucifer – just some of the esoteric explanations for the world’s current madness. Simulation and illusion (maya) are more in line with my thinking though I currently feel repeat scripts may apply (as well).


That I am an open channel is not in dispute. Ditto lessons to be learnt from others in my time and space. Connections are made in order to learn. Presumably, still to come, is a very special soulmate. Maybe even a twin soul. Till then, I guess I have to make mistakes interpreting the various signals I often pick up. Like this most recent one.

Confused Vibrations

Stepping back in time first, T, almost from the first DM, talked of connecting and connections. So, despite thinking God was playing a terrible joke on me, I was curious. I tried to keep my interest on the metaphysical but he kept dragging it down which, to be fair, I didn’t try hard enough to stop.

Soul connections are not always of the kind that elevate and enhance – and, thankfully, that connection died a long time ago.

Repeat Scripts

But then another appeared to tune in.

Except this one has said nothing, appears disinterested in me and even a brief chat not long ago made me feel like a fly being swatted away. And, unfortunately, it has also meant revisiting the previous connection, given several similarities.

Somehow, the mystical connecting mechanism has got damaged since, try as I may, I cannot sense any personal spiritual lessons to learn via that channel – and I cannot force others to learn theirs. Or perhaps this is the lesson? To accept some lingering soul connection but for both to ignore it?

I presume all relate back to S (and closing karmic loopholes) – which neatly takes me to Black Magic Woman. Something still to be written up.

Black Magic Woman

A Twitter follower expressed interest in a brief comment I made about black magic. As the S episode kicked off The Other Stuff including the above ‘channelling’, I thought I shouldn’t put off recording it as a journal entry, rather than odd bits here and there in my diaries.

It’s not remotely a point in time and space I want to relive, so I have got no further than the checklist below. Clearly there is a lot more, some of which is deeply traumatic, so who can blame me!

starting point – 3 prophetic dreams
work colleague everyone thinks we are chalk and cheese – we are
just sexual interlude but got pregnant
truth comes out – another woman also pregnant
also find out about his 6 month obsession with me
time off in Spain – miscarriage – left them to it
but after C’s baby born he tells me he loves me
tell him to accept his life with her
but out of body experience in pub car park
she calls me to tell me to stop ignoring him!
‘black magic’  begins
Brian – a Retix customer – tells me he senses malign forces around me
go to see 3 separate ‘exorcists’
Third Eye opens
Incubus – unconditional love
And gone but spectre of Grim Reaper hovers
Study hypnosis and regressions get answers of a sort

What Next?

I don’t know and there are plenty of other issues to task the mind: Covid-19, Brexit, Islamic immigration, Global Reset, Trump-Biden and more.

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Heat Break

Heated Issues Piling Up

Lost track of when this heatwave started but had a kind of mini heat stroke last night and ended up puking up – thankfully, not while in bed. Feels awful at the time but actually is quite healing. I certainly slept heavily. But heat of one sort or another keeps coming.

There are multiple forms of heat right now – the actual heat wave, illegals arriving in wave after wave with the Govt doing pretty much nothing bar giving them 4* hotel holidays. A deep recession just kicking off. People still believing Covid 19 is on a par with the Black Death – adding to economic and health woes.

American politics – the hatred for Trump is unhinged and unreal. Some Brexit groundhogging – mostly from REUmainians who are now ‘Rejoiners’ and are as looping and stupid as they have been over the last 4+ years. I try to avoid them.

Then there is a particular kind of black yet again doing themselves no service at all. In America it is justifying weeks and weeks of rioting and looting. Here, they have taken a break from pulling down statues to whine about colour charts or racial profiling (through tinted windows) and so much more that it would take up the entire post to log them all.
Such inferiority complexes just play right into the hands of those who think blacks in general are inferior. Wiser black heads must speak louder to shut down these vexatious pillocks before there really are race wars.

(I don’t feel we are anywhere near that and even the KKK mentality is minimal. They are mostly as thick as well, so few want to be associated with them.)

Not forgetting the usual personal criticism referencing my spiritual journey bio. To these plankton, ‘spiritual’ is on a par with sainthood. It’s not. Am currently working on a new Wise El to explain. Not that it would make much difference. Even people who appear to be interested in me cannot be bothered to read what I am about – even with links provided :>(

Or my pre-emptive strike why I – born here but clearly ethnically different – feel the need to mention Dad’s 35+ years in the Royal Air Force. If I have to explain why, which I have had to, then these people are part of the problem – totally lacking in empathy for all those caught in the middle of inferior blacks and inferior whites squabbling.


Seems even God is fed up with illegals as there was an earthquake in the English Channel – felt in East Sussex. (That was a *joke*.)

Seriously, these illegals come here using criminal means, are allowed to stay – and then piss off home for holidays. Some do their damndest to turn the UK into a reflection of the places they ran away from.

And yes they are almost all from That Ideology – quickly getting positions of power and influence to change us and our culture instead of knuckling down, re-paying us and integrating harmoniously.

When are we going to get a Govt that kicks out these fake asylum seekers and illegals permanently before the entire country has changed to look like the Islamic s’holes they have left?

Dear Lord. Just read a suicide note from an FBF. Hopefully, it is another cry for help but it seems like the problems are piling up again with the shiny happy stuff being taken away – access to his son, loss of his job. Can only send healing vibes.

Meanwhile a tweet from me in March about Cadwalladr’s usual overblown response has got the loonies out again. Muted. What is it with these plankton that they cannot read basic English?

Bart C posted this morning about ‘reality’ – that there were his thoughts and there is reality outside of them. My reply was that reality is pronounced or reduced or even denied by the thoughts that do go round inside one’s own head. And that you have only to read the comments of a good many about illegals or Brexit or CV19.

What might be blindingly obvious to some is not even remotely recognised by others.

Have muted the responses but they were along the lines of ‘I’m alright Jack’. Of course my tweet was personal, but the over-reaction – which some still favour – has kicked off this deep recession. Many more have died thanks to Covid 19 – not because of it or from it. But the planks still cannot see that.

Back to perceptions of reality.

Meanwhile it is less sauna-like now. Still wearing bikini bottoms and sarong as coolest choices though.

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