Darling Ma had an unfortunate habit of what I call ‘looping’. We’d have the same conversations over and over again which drove me nuts. Probably with that in mind, I dislike repeating myself, even if I do sometimes, and even if I haven’t seen people in many years. If an experience needs to be re-told it will be, when there is a need, not in idle chitchat (which I’m not desperately fond of anyway).
Hence sharing when someone has shared something with me, or if I feel what I have been through might help another. Other than that, it is spiritually wrong to keep going over the various negative experiences which we all have in our lives.
Perhaps it is a paradox that someone as friendly and outgoing as I know I am should prefer to be on my own and to keep social gatherings to a minimum. I find them retrospectively draining – as if I have been vamped – and so would rather pick and choose who I spend time with.
Where does that leave the internet?
It’s certainly increased my social circle, albeit with many people I have never laid eyes on or who have heard my voice at all (unless they’ve heard my YouTube clips. And yes, I haven’t forgotten to add more – soon!!) – nor are many ever likely to. But that’s the way of the world we are currently in and it provides a good watercooler for a self-employed home-based worker.
To be fair, while there is some annoyance channelling this post, it is not just from that comment.
In the first six days of this wet and cold May, and in one day alone, I got five internet communications from different men that slightly creeped me out. Sadly, it does mean that I will not be as free with responding as I used to be as it takes energy and effort to create energetic ties with people. Sharing words is a lesser energy than sharing physical presence, but it is still a strong tie and should be used carefully if the conversations do not elevate the soul in some way.
Possibly the easiest way to check whether there is any meaning is if anything you said previously fell into a dark pit in the other’s consciousness. Who wants to expend energy communicating with someone who is so careless with recall?
Something else that cropped up in online conversation (which, to be fair, it does relatively frequently) is the subject of my love life. Extremely long-term readers might remember the Rooster. He managed to kill off any desire I had or have to casually date or accept love from anyone who is oikish or mean or on a different wavelength from me.
Engaging in relationships takes even more time, energy and effort than just conversing online so it would have to be someone very special to make me change my mind!
That doesn’t mean I have switched off from the desire to meet my Twin Soul. Soulmates are relatively frequent though STM did have a bigger charge and effect than any other but nonetheless was just a soulmate and not my Twin Soul.
Many years ago, Sonia M told me I’d never marry, unless something very special happened, as it wasn’t in my ‘stars’. Seems to have been the case though I have had a few proposals of marriage. My inner self is enough for me though, of course, I do live in hope of my Twin Soul finding me as I him.
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